It may seem odd to review a book long out of print, but this one is
worth searching for. I found a copy at my local library. A well-written
story of the first solo crossing of the Atlantic by a woman sailor,in
1953, "My Ship Is so Small" provides lessons for the modern sailor. The
recent announcement that the Northwest School of Wooden Boat Building in
Port Townsend is restoring her boat, the 23 ft "Felicity Ann," makes it
timely.
Davison's story has been touted as a story of courage,
but it's much more: it's a story of personal growth and a reminder of
how much easier today's technology has made long-distance sailing.
Towards
the end of the book, Davison said, "It wasn't courage that sent me
scurrying across the ocean. It was a little curiosity and a lot of
desperation that went into the making of that particular dream." Three
years earlier, Davison and her husband had set off in their 70 ft
restored fishing schooner in an illegal attempt to escape their
creditors. Unprepared and overwhelmed by the size of their boat, they
were shipwrecked on the rocks of Portland Bill. Even as she climbed the
cliff from the wreck, she knew she had to go to sea again. She believed
that if fear could be faced, tackled, overcome, she would find the key
to living.
Her Atlantic crossing provided plenty of fear to face
-- and obstacles to overcome. Without a self-steerer (this was before
the days of wind vanes), she was forced to heave-to when she wanted to
eat or sleep, cutting her sailing time almost in half. Calms, gales,
high seas and the relentless growth of barnacles slowed her down. She
never adjusted to the boat's motion and the trip took a physical toll on
her; towards the end she became so exhausted she wondered how she could
carry on.
When Davison started out on her crossing, she knew
little about how to sail or navigate and had to learn along the way. At
times in reading this, I found myself horrified at how ill-prepared she
was. But think of the many sailors today who start off on an ocean
crossing without first taking time to know their boat. The difference
was she didn't have today's equipment -- and she was alone.
At
times lyrical in her descriptions of sunsets and dolphins and at other
times relentless in her portrayal of the difficulties that beset her,
her log of the final crossing from Las Palmas to Dominica kept me
turning pages. Did she find that key to living? She felt she did. I
won't give her secret away; it's worth reading yourself to find out.